Last week was really a long week of treatment. My second day of IPT I also had complications. I had some kind of reaction to either the insulin or the doxyrubicin (one of the chemo drugs) and I had chest pain and shortness of breath and my blood sugar stayed below 50 for almost an hour. It was a rough day. The nurses gave me meds through my IV to try and raise my sugar and I was given so much sugar to drink that I felt like I was going to vomit sugar. But my sugar still remained low. Right after the chest pain started I also started to shake uncontrollably. I finally stabilized. The nurses and the PA were a little shaken by the experience and so was the doctor. He wanted me to be seen by the hematologist before I left that day. The Hematologist was worried that I had possibly had a heart attack so he wanted me checked by my cardiologist. I was pretty upset because I didn't want to stop treatment and I had no idea how long it would take to see my cardiologist.
Thankfully I was VERY persistent and he agreed to see me bright and early the next day. Our plane was delayed so we arrived home at 1 am and I had to be up by 6:30 in the morning. I was tired. I had a stress echo the next day and it looked fine. I had to wait until that afternoon to get the final results, but it looked like I would be able to continue treatment.
The next day I took my next dose of Gc MAF. I was also trying something new. I am now using something called autohemotherapy which helps stimulate my macrophages (part of my immune system) to work. I am all about making my immune system work. I don't want the cancer to come back. The next day I felt horrible, I slept over 15 hours and when I woke up I was nauseous and sick. I slept most of the day and then went to bed early. Today I woke up at 10am feeling a little better. I was actually able to hold down some food, although it sucks that I am starting to feel a little normal and I am leaving bright and early (4am) tomorrow morning to start this treatment all over again. Because of all my complications i am considering asking the doctor to take me off from doxyrubicin and put me on something else.
I started treatment yesterday. I was really not prepared for how I actually felt after treatment. I feel like I am toxic. While I was getting the chemo I had some sort of reaction and had chest pain and an irregular heartbeat. I ended up having to take nitro to stop the pain and irregular heart beat. I also started to feel nauseous almost immediately. As Jack and I were walking to the train station the wind blew and I got a big nose full of aroma from the peanuts Jack was eating and the smell alone not only caused such a severe wave of nausea, but it also started the chest pain again. Add that to the swelling and general ickiness and you might begin to understand how I feel.
As I write this with stomach cramps and bouts of nausea I am shocked at the realization that I only had less than a tenth of the dose of chemo that most people have. How do they stand it? How do they live? I am not really functioning very well right now and I am healthy (a runner) and stubborn and on many supplements and alternative treatments aside from the IPT. How do those who take full doses live through it? I can’t even imagine. I hope that my immune system can withstand this abuse without completely collapsing. I really need my immune system to get stronger and I am struggling to see how that will happen while I am taking these toxic chemicals.
As I have said before, I will say it again. Cancer We Are At War and you will NOT win. I am a fighter and I will overcome you. My will is stronger than yours. I will persevere. For all of you with cancer out there, remember how strong you are and how much you have overcome already. You are a fighter and you will win this fight! There is a way to win, I am confidant of that. So don’t lose hope and don’t stop fighting!