Wednesday I went for treatment expecting everything to go well since Monday had went so well. Unfortunately I had another episode (for lack of a better word). I was shaking uncontrollably and my blood sugar stayed low. They pushed meds to try and bring me back up to normal and they had me drink several orange juices and lemonade and eat fruit. I felt like i was going to vomit sugar, but my blood sugar stayed low. I also had another severe Reynaud's attack. I am not sure if something in the meds that they were giving me were causing a Reynaud's attack. But the Reynaud's didn't seem to be helping things.
The head nurse mentioned that maybe this treatment wasn't working for me. I was upset because if this treatment wasn't working then what would? It was obvious from the reactions (both in my heart and other side effects) that full strength chemo would probably kill me. What else was there? I was already doing every alternative treatment I could in addition to the IPT. If this didn't work I don't know what will.
I left the doctor's office not knowing whether they would continue treating me or not. I was very upset. I only found out this afternoon (Thursday) that they would let me come on Monday. The doctor wants me to take some different supplements to try and get the Reynaud's under control. Before he hung up he mentioned that I was too sick not to get treatment and that he wanted to help me. I agreed with him although it was hard to hear someone say that I was really that sick. But I guess I am. I try not to think about it.